Sunday, March 4, 2012

Life

This is my life, and I will change it.
I once said that only fear and love can drive a person. And I think I was right. But its not love that drove me, it was fear. fear to hurt others, fear to hurt my self, fear that deep down I really am truly, utterly, insane, that I enjoy watching people get hurt. So I learned something about my self. There are two of me. Totally different yet one in the same. A side of me driven of fear, and a side of me driven by love. Those who have seen both understand the hell it is that I can be to deal with.
so. I have a new fear.
I am scared to be afraid. To be fearful. To live by fear. Live with hate, with anger, feared fear its self, in all its forms.
And so, I have to turn to love. And that is what will guide me.
Love.

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